Sunrise

So....it isn't often that we find time to have quiet time in ourAs with all things it takes work.   lives.  To often we are weighed down with all the daily burdens of life: work, relationships, school, etc.... But an opportunity presented itself to me and it has turned out to be just the thing I needed.  A chance to reconnect to things forgotten or put on the back burner.  A chance to clear my mind and think about the future. 

I'm in Key West this week on a little working vacation.  It started out as a chance to help my old boss, Brian, and has turned out that I'm the one that needed the help. 

I thought I could handle the move to Orlando.   That I would be happy.  Well I'm not.  Not yet anyway.  But its getting better all the time.  I guess I thought it would be easier.  I met with my AA sponsor after a meeting yesterday and we talked about things. 

Why did I think it would be easy?

As with all things, its gonna take work.  He told me I need to ground myself again.  That I had let the things that made me happy in Key West seem unavailable in Orlando.  That its there if I let it in.  He's so right.

When the plane landed in Key West I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.  Yes, happy to be here but relaxed at the same time.  Guard down.  Yesterday I realized the whole time I've been in Orlando I've been waiting.  Maybe waiting to go back to Key West or for an opportunity to drop at my feet.  I should have been embracing what I have; thanking God for everything he's given me these past two (in 11 days) years; and giving back all that I can. 

As you can see, I've realized a few things.  I have more than most so shut up and be thankful; stop the self-pity crap and MAKE myself happy; and that I have the best, most supportive husband ever. 

Its amazing what you can learn about yourself with just one sunrise.